2014/3/12

After so many incidents happened. I just have some time to take a breath. It's a good thing i guess. But I can't imagine my life will be that tough. Something bad just happened and how i feel like she's going to leave me soon. I don't know why. I just have this kind of feeling. After that incident her parents knew that my family status is so much complicated that a normal family, they start to discourage her from getting together with me. I don't know why, even i don't really hope i will have this kind of family. I also hope to have a complete family. But why can't they understand my feelings? They only think that child who came out from broken family is bad and can't go for them or getting together with them. What's the problem? I'm just an ordinary guy. Although my family is broken doesn't mean that my family will be like that too. Why you all have to use this kind of way to see me.I know I come from a family, but at least give me a chance to show me that I can become better than them. I don't know if really they stop her from getting with me or not. But I just can feel it. I can feel the force, I don't know why. I'm so scare and worry. These few days our topic is getting lesser and lesser until we both don't really talk much in the car. I feel like we are like strangers and not like how we used to be.I feel so worry and scare. What if it's real? I just can't imagine how it will happen. I do really love her a lot. She's almost like my everything.Life is always sucks like hell. #justwantabetterlife