2013/12/22

Hmm.. Getting worse these few days. Totally don't know what can I do at all. Things is getting more and more complicated. I'm getting more and more confuse.When you both talk bout your problems i start to feel stress, sometimes I can't even concentrate on driving. I'm so stuck these few days. What can i do? I still got a lot of stuff to do. I'm so tired until don't know what I should do to release myself. It's like my brain has been stored a bunch of rubbish and cannot be process at all. I'm done with all these. I just want to rest and do what i should do and cope with problems which i have to but not all these rubbish stuff that given by you! You such a rubbish! Is there any dad that will talk something bad about their son behind them? I can tell you yes! There's one dad would do that whom is my fucking dad. Why do you want to treat your own son like that? Why can't you leave some face for me? I'm also a human who need dignity. These days i start to want something from her. But i can feel that she doesn't really want to give. Don't know why last time i will not want this kind of stuff with her but now i start to feel like wanting it from her. What should i do? I don't really want to be like that somemore i can feel like she doesn't really want it. I feel so sorry to her that i did that to her that day. Luckily she doesn't really mind what bad things i've done. Should i take that from her? Or i shouldn't? Maybe i'll just forget bout it and continue our relationship without that thing. I guess so. Hope i could do it. Don't really want to be like that. But just... Haih.